And then the pandemic hit. Don't give up on yourself or your life for a mistake you think you made 10 years ago. You may consider it phantom pain, but its pain nonetheless. My son sees a sadness every so often in me. I encourage you, if you are not already doing so, to have those moments alone with Jesus, talk to Him, He is not only our healer but also Your friend that Loves you so dearly I thought is wasnt normal to still feel guilty 10 years later. only with God do I hang on. Yet in only 10 percent of the couples do both former spouses. Remember that you can make it on your own, have a positive mindset and accept to move on. Friends and families will help you overcome the pain of divorce 10 years later. Kay I join you in getting a F grade in moving on. After 25 years of marriage, including couples therapy near the end, my husband left, already in a relationship with another woman. crying spells. He was my best friend, husband and mentor. 7 Cures to Move on From the Lingering Loneliness After Divorce These are the steps I took to provide an escape hatch from the intensity of the loneliness that I felt. Dont let years and years pass by and cling to the pain, hurt, and resentment. The worst part came a couple years later as I was sorting through papers to be destroyed. He aluded to not being happy This is not the life I wanted etc. Yeah.). I realize this website was for moms, but couldnt help but reply. So much collateral damage. Joanne, Thank you Joanne. Whether you're 32 years old or just 2, whether you're one-half of the once happily . But my heart tells me that interacting with her as a friend is more hurtful. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont feel terrible. If you continue drinking to avert suffering, then this will never help you to heal, and your emotions towards life will only worsen. I feel I was used long enough to help her get her Masters degree and pay bills then I was no longer needed. }. The marriage deteriorated. Also learn to put your positive energy in a different atmosphere, visit childrens homes, share their joys and hurts and encourage them that there is hope after a painful living. Your piece really spoke to me. Ray J . Every holiday my daughters have to divide the holidays, not just between us and in-laws, but us and the other us and the in-laws. No doubt my personal history comes into play as well; I was single into my 30s having declined a few proposals, deferring marriage until I was ready, convinced I had made an excellent choice. Youre allowing your pain to keep you from enjoying your children and grandchildren. Anyway, I saved the article to read and reread, and I hope I will get to the point where I do not miss the man any longer. I feel like my life was a road that led to a sudden precipice that I could not see that I fell into it or perhaps I was pushed into it, by the man I loved more than any other and I am still falling. All the you statements are certainly not appropriate. Believe me, God sees everything and He is a God of Justice, but His word says that we must forgive, not that they deserve it, but if and when we do, we start experiencing peace within us and start the process of healing. The process of divorce brings forth a torrent of pain, anger and cruelty, the detritus of which still hangs over me like a cloud. Moving on after divorce certainly requires more than someones prescription. Keeping the bed. Dont allow bitterness to rule I know it isnt easy, but we have no choice but to accept what has happened & deal with it. I will search for a gentler and more compassionate website. ", Studies show that men feel empty, guilty, anxious, depressed, deep loss, and strong dependency needs of which they . But you have to stop punishing yourself and adding to the belief that you lost your one and only chance for true love. Copy and paste it, adding a note of your own, into your blog, a Web page, forums, a blog comment, He stopped speaking to me full stop. We have 2 grown children now1 doing very well, the other still trying to find his way. We have two daughters, one who has special needs that is 24/7 high acuity care, and Im angry. However, in as much as the pain is there, its good to mourn but this should not take forever, one should get to know the way out and know how to get out of it, then move on. I will care for her as long as I am physically able, but I am so sad that I have to go through this alone, and one day, she will pass away and I will be alone in my pain and sorrow at her passing. Symptoms of divorce-related depression can include any, or a combination of, the following: Sudden loss of interest in things you once enjoyed Loss of appetite Increase in appetite Weight loss or gain Difficulty sleeping Excessive irritability Rage Sudden insomnia Increased fatigue Difficulty focusing or concentrating Difficulty making decisions I was married for 29 years and so I am almost there. Within the last year, I ended my 20-year marriage after slowly coming to the realization that it was a codependent relationship. A divorce can be painful for both people - start new . I've been having a recurring dream every night for the past few weeks. Better if you acknowledge the pain and express it openly instead of trying to deny it as if it doesnt exist at all." Lest you think thats all there is, I repeat: These days, life is pretty good. Look beyond your broken marriage, erase the thoughts of your Ex and concentrate on other matters. 13+ years. You arent able to find joy in your life as it is. I wish all who have experienced this, the best of strength and happiness. No, I have not found someone else, but I knew I needed to find myself first. Thank you for this. "@type": "FAQPage", Now my one son and his fianc are choosing the dads side and have minimal contact with my older son, my husband and myself. Im very happy to find this essay tonight, and the comments you have all left. I know it is possible to lose conscious contact with that inner peace and love, and I know how tempting it is to think that our love walked away when we parted ways with our dream mate - but if you perpetuate this delusion you cause yourself much more pain.One of the best tools for moving on and letting go of past traumas, regrets, losses and so on - is Meridian Tapping/EFT. The descriptors are poignant and cathartic to say the least. There is nothing wrong with you other than youve not accepted where you are now and let go of the hopes and plans you had when married. Toughing it out. Apparently I get a F grade in moving on.. Divorce can be worse than dying. The main reason as to why this is experienced in the lives of people who have separated is because of the good memories that were shared while in marriage, the obstacles that they overcame make people still the hurt and especially if they have a challenge that needs a partner to step in and support. You are welcome to reach out to me at, [emailprotected] Bless you! after 5 years the pain I think is worse . Thank you for this article! Thank you for putting in words what so many people feel. I wasnt perfect, but many people still scratch head wondering why all of this. At the moment its him using we/our in his e-mails because I am having his sister to stay. Divorce at this point takes the order of the day. It will only increase the hurts and pains which will also affect your health. Thank you for finding those words. It becomes manageable, but thats about it. I believe scars remain, but forgiveness can set us free still, it is a choice we make each time the pain appears. I do wish you peace, as I wish this for everyone in our situation. And after all, since my boys are no longer children, these days its at those events that I am most likely to be interacting with my sons at the holidays, a graduation, some other special celebration. I have really enjoyed reading everyones story and I realise now that I am very normal 10 years on. Did I handle things negatively, sure did. Still sometimes sad about not having the life I expected. You may continue hurting 10 years later because of being fed with negative information of your ex-wife thereby holding you from getting over your past hurts. I take strange comfort in the fact that you still hurt 36 years after your divorce: I realise it sounds odd but the comfort is in knowing that Im not the only one who cannot move on as I was told to over and over again. I somewhat relate to you (except that my 2 adult kids do see reality and stand by my side, and at the same time love their dad, which is better for their own well being). When you ask your 21 year old how her mom is doing ,she says not good and starts sobbing. A ten-year marriage is also considered to be a long-term marriage by the Social Security Administration. It matters. I often hear wives say things like: "Sure, he's sorry . It has been just over a year now and I still feel like I have been kicked in the stomach daily. I try to limit my public outbursts, but sometimes that's when the sad comes. It leaves a mark,my divorce will always be a sad event in my life like other sad things.I choose to see how I have survived and thrived and I look at my kids now 9 and 10 and think' I did that'.I am proud ,a liitle battered and bruised by the journey but proud nonetheless. your Facebook account, or anywhere that someone would find this page valuable. You may have to find. I come from a large family and all the memories of my wife are with them. Although my ex did apologize, he never really clarified WHY he left. from their father when they need us both. She is very busy socially and at work. } Im still feeling the wound 36 years after the divorce. Perfectly said. And regardless of its source, shouldnt we be allowed to acknowledge it when it returns, free to express our feelings openly? Yes, even the not wanting to date after a divorce. As such, it is essential to take up to 4 years to allow complete healing before you start dating. You can be happy and sad at the same time after divorce because memories come and go without a warning. Absolutely. Divorce can be hard on children but, equally, so can watching parents fight and endure a loveless marriage "for the sake of the kids.". We grew up together, worked in various cities, had good friends, loved each other's familys and then I just left him. Deep down, if she tried to come back, Id take her back. "mainEntity": [{ but is still just a imitation of what are family should and would be. It looks pretty hurtful from where I stand. I am an optimist and hope and pray that eventually for the sake of our children Agree. Especially finding out about the other persons affair 2 years later and how it was happening for much longer. We were married for 15 years. It's easy to slip into dramatic self-pity mode when you're the one left behind, just as it was in my divorce. I have not been able to get over my pre-divorce delusion that our marriage was solid, and that he loved me deeply. Some people see divorce pain as phantom pain, conveniently forgetting it is pain nevertheless. } I found out my wife of 23 years (27 years together) was having an affair the last Sunday in January 2021. I wasnt perfect, but many people still scratch head wondering why all of this. It sort of put me in a bad spot, because I have no family of my own, so her family was my family. I think this is going to be chance for me to finally heal and let go of him. And apparently, my sadness lingers at moments. feelings of . 'We were still in love when our marriage ended' I got divorced because of a communication breakdown (that oversimplifies it, really) but I regret it because we were probably still in love when. But the pain lingers under the surface always. This goes hand-in-hand with feeling your emotions. As parents of a "broken home," my ex and I know in our hearts that we did as best as we could for as long as we could, but in the end, it didn't work. Some people are never positive about their well-being. Needless to say, they do not see him and rarely communicate with him. Not seen your child daily, especially when child is still very young, is excruciating. "acceptedAnswer": { Every former boyfriend has told me I am still in love with him. The fact that she decided to blow me off and easily moved on to a wonderful life (without me) hurts a great deal. Wow. Ive been struggling with anxiety. You can still love her without remaining in daily pain. Sadness and happiness can coexist,but its not easy,not at all. Friends dont understand, and my only comfort is my faith in God and lots and lots of prayer. The more time that passes, the more reminders and suggestions you will need to deal with the aftermath of . While I am not a mom, I am a dad. Personally, I consider these realizations to be hard-won wisdom. It's important to set some achievable goals. Then the shoe dropped. The residual anger,. Along with the occasional look of, "Mhmm, sure.". the pain is there every day . You might feel disconnected or sad, even if you wanted the relationship to end. But I still think what I did, in leaving him was the worst thing I've ever done or will ever do and it absolutely breaks my heart. Thank you for writing this article and for me stumbling upon it Im so glad there are others out there who understand, and can put into words, how this feels. Ive been alone for over 12 years, the pain has definitely lessened, but there are times it still hurts & always will. Divorce can be worse than dying. The dread and emptiness you feel after a breakup, is subtly acknowledged as in it's the subject of every great work of art known to man but publicly, it's not an acceptable reason to like, skip work or not be a functional human being. I had an amazing marriage, and I loved being a husband. 15 years after divorce she is bubbling over with joy, energy and health. Some of the common signs of depression are mentioned in an article by psy.com. Which means that by cutting her out, I cut them out, which leaves me alone. I wa interested in this website. Good luck to everyone here as well divorce is tough but we are tougher . My son sees a sadness every so often in me. I WAS MARRIED 30 YEARS When she left . I guess Im the oldest divorcee here meaning my divorce was in 2003. D. A. has written for print magazines and newspapers, and she is a regular contributor to Huffington Post Divorce, The Good Men Project, Read MoreFind me on Twitter. Add in a young child, and the other spouse refusing to work on things, rather, cut bait and get out immediately with no reason. Three kids and 15 years later we divorced. Clinging to the word of God is what is helping me go through all the pain and hurt. 3-5 years. Sad. Although it may be different than the one you imagined, after a divorce you do still have a future to look forward to. My life was unraveling before my eyes. Wishing you all the best You would not be providing a broken home to a child, youd be providing love and stability and a father. Obviously the grass is greener wasnt that green. As I feel like I should be over it 6 years on but Im not. Especially finding out about the other persons affair 2 years later and how it was happening for much longer. I thought it would finally bring an end to feeling trapped, unhappy and hopeless. Yes, we have no choice but to keep on keeping on. On the midst of the storm, He has given me peace. Concentrate on investments that would help you work out what is best for you and stop being obsessed about your ex-partner. Help Is Here. There are tactics you can use the get passed the pain, I promise. I send you a virtual warm and embracing hug. I am glad I read this. But love, sadly, is not always enough when it comes to marriage, and we deal with it in the best way possible. And Jennifer L hit the nail on the head. I come back to these comments, to give me comfort in knowing that others still mourn the loss of what was and what could have been. Im lucky my daughter still talks to me. Done. The average first marriage that ends in divorce lasts about 8 years. You just have to do the work and know some days you will still feel sadness. Great article. We just arent on the same level. We are none of us any one thing. And yes, so much collateral damage. Being the spouse left behind hurts tremendously. we will find a common ground to make it as normal as possible.. Good article! As time goes on, there are less and less bad days, and more good ones . Best wishes to all of us! Its a good thing too, for if I hadnt I know what I feel now would be far worse. Great article!!! What I learned: Never let your guard down entirely, and he or she with the deepest pockets wins. It is more than enough! Im mostly happy, but the corners stay sad. As others, I am so glad I found this article, and reading the comments I now realise I am not being stupid. I devoted my whole life to him and our 2 adult kids who blame me for everything and no longer speak with me but have welcome the child bride with open arms. The deep pain of losing a relationship is based on the belief that your peace and your joy lies within the other person, and without them, you have no access to these feelings. Articles like this are good- to open the dialogue that sometimes the pain of divorce doesnt go away or that time heals but we learn somehow to live with it and live a happy life where we can. we see each other all the time with that and every smell and sound and sight reminds me of her and how my family was and could be .. They say it takes a year per year that you were married to heal. I gave someone my entire heart, promises, vows, ups, downs, physical intimate moments, and emotional intimate moments I never thought I could give and share with someone. Studio Firma/Stocksy United. Shared custody, full custody, whatever custody a parent is granted; theres a brokeness that will never be repaired. Shelia sorry to hear about your story. Ive heard his stories regarding his mother and her husband. people say you should be over and done by now . The divorce was my idea. However, while you may expect to feel a bit sad about your ex moving on, you may be surprised or confused at the . I was married for 42 years when suddenly, without warning, a knock at the door, and a sheriff with divorce papers. I went through the divorce process in a daze, devastated. It's not a bad place to be. It happens that even after ten years, the pain persists even if it was an amicable divorce. The more you feed your mind with positive thoughts, the more you can overcome. God bless you! I think, for me, I will never fully recover from the betrayal of the life my ex and I had created over 25 years. My adult son came to live with me 20 years after his mother and I divorced. Thank you again for sharing your stories. I too get sad in these all too often moments Then I feel the empty space profoundly not for a man I do not miss but where a family history of four ought to be. Our youngest daughters future events such as marriage, graduations, etc., that we now have to be a part of as separate families, instead of being proud together and sharing that moment with each other, Im sitting alone glaring at my ex, reliving the whole scene of him walking out on me with a younger model going on vacations and living it up while I am barely getting 3 hours sleep a night. Perhaps it is an aftereffect of the years I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. My experience is the same as a husband. It was so good to read something I have been feeling for over 15 years. Mental health experts agree that divorce is comparable to the loss of a loved one, which makes sense given that you're suffering the loss of a marriage and all that goes with it. Life goes on and we have to make the very best of what we have, hard and all that it is. I love my daughter dearly and wouldnt want it any other way. you deserve to be happy and to have a fulfilling relationship. I think that is because i still have a relationship with my ex not with him but with my refusal to let go of him. Although she burdens me daily with spam, she's devoted and reliable. That alone really destroys me when I think about it but I have to be strong for my little granddaughter who I have not met yet but one day I hope to. That morning somehow felt like a pivotal moment in my life. My divorce might be legally over soon. She left because she no longer wanted marriage and to go down the path we were heading e.g. And my bitterness prevents me from speaking to her, despite her efforts to remain friends. Don't give up on yourself or your life for a mistake you think you made 10 years ago. Time is supposed to heal us and all our wounds. Its now 10 years since my husband walked out after 29 years of marriage, and having had an affair with his now partner for eight months before he did so. Parent conflict is dangerous to children. Then she decided to take her Mom for a vacation to ensure that she was at peace and enjoy a new atmosphere outside the norm. Thank you for putting your experience to paper which identifies the common pain we shareand doing it so perfectly. Good luck! difficulty concentrating. Pain can coexist with happiness. She got healed from the pain of leaving her marriage, and by the time they came back home, she was mentally prepared to start dating again since all her hurts were healed.
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